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STANDING ON THE OUTSIDE....LOOKING IN.
Ok....so things haven't changed much at the new job. I'm still scratching my head and wondering what I was thinking when I said "yes" to this complex puzzle. While one day has some small triumphs - the next is swimming with questions. For every rock I'm able to lift, there are myriad stones underneath it.
Meanwhile, all I can think of is my old job and the security that it provided. I knew what I was doing there and the future wasn't as uncertain as it is these days. Even though I was slammed with work, it was something I could grasp and master. Never mind the side benefits of showing movies/producing events at the medical center. Gah.... Aside from my truncated career as a talent agent, I've never been so frustrated before in job. Perhaps it will pass - and all of this griping will be an embarrassing fotenote, but not at the moment.
In other news....
Greer is taking steps! Alex's folks are looking after the little guy during the day this week - and he took four steps without falling. Last night, as we were sitting in the living toom, he did it again - clapping and laughing all the way. He has this joy that surrounds him - like he knows something we don't. His smile makes me forget my stupid issues and remember what is important. It makes me wish we could spend more time with him - as we are always missing something while we work.
The organization bug is biting me again. Our basement shoproom hasn't changed much since we moved in - a cluttered mess of boxes full of the usual memorabilia. I've already sorted through it - and added more (thanks to infusions from my folks). I have to get a handle on this before it starts to develop its own ecosystem. Must reclaim the basement!
STANDING ON THE OUTSIDE....LOOKING IN.
Ok....so things haven't changed much at the new job. I'm still scratching my head and wondering what I was thinking when I said "yes" to this complex puzzle. While one day has some small triumphs - the next is swimming with questions. For every rock I'm able to lift, there are myriad stones underneath it.
Meanwhile, all I can think of is my old job and the security that it provided. I knew what I was doing there and the future wasn't as uncertain as it is these days. Even though I was slammed with work, it was something I could grasp and master. Never mind the side benefits of showing movies/producing events at the medical center. Gah.... Aside from my truncated career as a talent agent, I've never been so frustrated before in job. Perhaps it will pass - and all of this griping will be an embarrassing fotenote, but not at the moment.
In other news....
Greer is taking steps! Alex's folks are looking after the little guy during the day this week - and he took four steps without falling. Last night, as we were sitting in the living toom, he did it again - clapping and laughing all the way. He has this joy that surrounds him - like he knows something we don't. His smile makes me forget my stupid issues and remember what is important. It makes me wish we could spend more time with him - as we are always missing something while we work.
The organization bug is biting me again. Our basement shoproom hasn't changed much since we moved in - a cluttered mess of boxes full of the usual memorabilia. I've already sorted through it - and added more (thanks to infusions from my folks). I have to get a handle on this before it starts to develop its own ecosystem. Must reclaim the basement!
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