Another month and some catching up...
So....where do I begin?
The last month has been a blur of sorts. After the headstone was laid, we had it repositioned to more accurately reflect the location where the girls are resting. We visit the cemetery almost every day - keeping the flowers fresh and enjoying the peaceful ambiance of the park. As sad as it makes me....I will always feel at home in that place.
Greer is doing ok. He's been spending a lot of time with Dad (mostly staying cool in the basement - at least in the last couple of days). We go to the pool and the park every week, and have ventured out to OMSI and a few other fun places. He still refers to Eleanor and Quinn as "sick", so it's hard to tell how much he understands. He knows that they are gone - but he senses their presence still.
Alex and I are doing are best in this situation, I guess. Since there is no definite roadmap for grief, we're playing it by ear. Some days are better than others, but we are always prone to sadness and frustration. Not so much anger at God, but a great burden of sadness over the loss of such beautiful babies. I suppose I will have a long talk with the Creator about this, but for now - we just keep on living.
In addition, we continue to receive wonderful support from friends and family alike. Whether it be working with us on our yard/garden, or just hanging out for an evening - we have enjoyed and appreciated the fellowship. Part of the garden event we had included a tree planting in honor of the girls. We had about 15 or so folks helping us whip things into shape - and when we all stood around that tree - in prayer - I felt as if a milestone had been passed. The beginning of new things.
I'm still looking for work - but I suspect that something is coming soon. My creativity has been taking me in some interesting directions as of late - and I'm hoping it will lead me to something rewarding. Jobwise, nothing has really stood out to me, but I'm always looking, so....
In the world of personal pursuits, I've had a few more event screenings at the Clinton (TM3, Loose Change, Century Plaza), completed editing on Trailermania 4, and am entertaining a return to acting onscreen. All that may not be considered "profitable" or "real" work when compared with my past professional gigs....but I enjoy doing it. I mean.....who really knows what's going to work? And why settle for something you don't care about? I realize that the rubber will meet the road and that bills must be paid, but at this point, I'm up for anything...
The last month has been a blur of sorts. After the headstone was laid, we had it repositioned to more accurately reflect the location where the girls are resting. We visit the cemetery almost every day - keeping the flowers fresh and enjoying the peaceful ambiance of the park. As sad as it makes me....I will always feel at home in that place.
Greer is doing ok. He's been spending a lot of time with Dad (mostly staying cool in the basement - at least in the last couple of days). We go to the pool and the park every week, and have ventured out to OMSI and a few other fun places. He still refers to Eleanor and Quinn as "sick", so it's hard to tell how much he understands. He knows that they are gone - but he senses their presence still.
Alex and I are doing are best in this situation, I guess. Since there is no definite roadmap for grief, we're playing it by ear. Some days are better than others, but we are always prone to sadness and frustration. Not so much anger at God, but a great burden of sadness over the loss of such beautiful babies. I suppose I will have a long talk with the Creator about this, but for now - we just keep on living.
In addition, we continue to receive wonderful support from friends and family alike. Whether it be working with us on our yard/garden, or just hanging out for an evening - we have enjoyed and appreciated the fellowship. Part of the garden event we had included a tree planting in honor of the girls. We had about 15 or so folks helping us whip things into shape - and when we all stood around that tree - in prayer - I felt as if a milestone had been passed. The beginning of new things.I'm still looking for work - but I suspect that something is coming soon. My creativity has been taking me in some interesting directions as of late - and I'm hoping it will lead me to something rewarding. Jobwise, nothing has really stood out to me, but I'm always looking, so....
In the world of personal pursuits, I've had a few more event screenings at the Clinton (TM3, Loose Change, Century Plaza), completed editing on Trailermania 4, and am entertaining a return to acting onscreen. All that may not be considered "profitable" or "real" work when compared with my past professional gigs....but I enjoy doing it. I mean.....who really knows what's going to work? And why settle for something you don't care about? I realize that the rubber will meet the road and that bills must be paid, but at this point, I'm up for anything...
